I didn't do anything for Halloween and I usually have some nerdy thing to attend.. I even missed seeing the Rocky Horror Picture Show (at 43 it may be more sad than cool but hey, it's still fun with the right friends). Anyhoo, I missed the costume opportunity and no longer had my performing outlet called "Tony and Tina's Wedding" (where I could have written off my glitter with as much bold and sparkly makeup I bought for that show) but decided the glitter could be used for Christmas.. (I even visited Sephora to stock up on non chunky glitter and "glitter glue" for the eyes so I'd be more subtle...yeah... me...subtle ;-)
Clearly that ship has sailed.
Anyway, it was a slow November for bookings and auditions which was sorta sad since october and september were kinda cool and ego boosting in the Voice Over department. THEN, one of the auditions I received last week was insanely attractive because of the astronomical compensation. Wish I could be more specific but it would have been more than I ever made in my life. How do you get that image out of your head when you're trying to be casual and not care too much about any audition.. Ugh I bet the smell of my desperation preceded my recording by 20 yards.
As if a budding career in the entertainment business wasn't stressful enough, My mom is going in for knee replacement surgery. I'm not really worried about that. She will be fine and recover for a good month after just like she did for the first knee replacement, which is now working flawlessly. What has me stressed out is how my Dad cannot function without her and instantly looks at this as a possibility she might not make it. THAT FREAKS ME OUT. It's all good. He's always been the nervous type and my mom cool as a cucumber.. Problem is I'm just this side of neurotic with a dash of crisis management compulsion. So I'm ready and able to put on the brave face but Jeez I'm just so tired.
And welcome to my holidays.. you'd think I'd be used to it since every stressful, tragic thing that happens in my family is almost without fail during the holiday season. MERRY FREAKIN CHRISTMAS!!!
Aww now that doesn't mean I don't like my holidays.. I love them..just as I did as a kid. As soon as I hear Christmas music I'm sensorially shot back to my dreamy youth and the and tastes smells that go with it... pine, egg nog with nutmeg and ribbon candy. No matter what else it brings this Christmas, I keep my eye on the prize: Having family cozy together. Oh and the Grinch who Stole Christmas with maybe Rudolph and the Heat Meiser song too.
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